My life update

I'm back on my blog page after a long time, now I am a mother of two darling girls and a homemaker who is constantly in search of doing something meaningful. I will not say I'm dissatisfied with my life, but yes I'm bored with this redundancy. I don't think I'm in a positive and happy vibe these days, I feel I'm a bit exhausted and disappointed with myself as a mother and also as a human being. I always feel I could do better, yet I don't think I'm doing anything at all.

Don't I love my kids, no I love them to the eternity, but the mom guilt I get, that I could and should do much better is killing me and frankly stopping me from doing basics as well.Im doing what I am supposed to do, but am I enjoying this beautiful phase being a mother, no I am just getting stressed over things again and again. What I want , what I don't is another big question that haunts me.

I wish to overcome all these useless self degradation stuff and do my responsibilities with love not out of frustration.