My life update

I'm back on my blog page after a long time, now I am a mother of two darling girls and a homemaker who is constantly in search of doing something meaningful. I will not say I'm dissatisfied with my life, but yes I'm bored with this redundancy. I don't think I'm in a positive and happy vibe these days, I feel I'm a bit exhausted and disappointed with myself as a mother and also as a human being. I always feel I could do better, yet I don't think I'm doing anything at all.

Don't I love my kids, no I love them to the eternity, but the mom guilt I get, that I could and should do much better is killing me and frankly stopping me from doing basics as well.Im doing what I am supposed to do, but am I enjoying this beautiful phase being a mother, no I am just getting stressed over things again and again. What I want , what I don't is another big question that haunts me.

I wish to overcome all these useless self degradation stuff and do my responsibilities with love not out of frustration.

My darling and her cartoons

I have seen cartoons for a quiet a few years maybe till I'm 16 - 17,along with my sister..After that got addicted to animation movies,kept watching till my little one came into my life.Once she came,my priorities completely changed..what ever I do it's along with her, she doesn't used to watch cartoons till she turned 1 year..She used enjoy Bollywood songs and dance for them,I remember I made a playlist of Bollywood songs on her birthday..Some of her favorite songs are "Saturday Saturday" from Humpty sharma ki Dulhaniya ,"my name is Ranveer Ching" Ching's noodles promotional song,  "Jumme ki raat hai" from Kick etc.., In the mean time I went to my Aunt's house,she didn't liked, her watching these songs,she advised me to show her cartoons instead of these songs..That's how her journey of cartoons started.

She loves music..So I started with Nick Jr cartoon,Dora The Explorer..Which has lot of songs and she instantly got attracted to it,the very first and most favorite cartoon is Dora,later she loved Team Umizoomi..I used fix her lunch time during this cartoon time,later Nick Jr changed the cartoon timings,somehow her schedule is disturbed as well.As she grew some more cartoons added to her list, she loved Mickey Mouse Clubhouse in Disney Jr,Paw Patrol of Nick Jr..Then she started watching cartoons in Smart phone,Pocoyo , a very cute cartoon , I love to watch it along with her.In recent days she loved new cartoons of Nick Jr "Shimmer and Shine" and " Peppa Pig", Peppa Pig is most favorite for her now ☺️☺️..

It's not like she keeps watching this cartoons whole day, she's a very active kid,no cartoon can stop her from mischief..But these are the cartoons which I don't want to forget,these are very much part of her childhood and I want to cherish this part as well..

Full time mummy

...Hi all,

After 3 long years I'm here blogging again..it's really funny,in all my old blogs,I mentioned about maintaining at least a blog per year,but it's 3 years I hardly  looked at my blog page.Maybe I got more important tasks in my life than Blogging(Actually It's one Of my favourite Hobbies).Yes, what I did all these years,what are those important tasks..that made me completely forgot about blogging.Try to guess😊😊 ,I am busy being a "Mummy" . The most busiest job,most demanding job,most tiresome job, but at the same time most satisfactory job...

My boss is 3.5 years old now,goes to play school..Can speak,play,demand, request and knows to operate a smart phone and many other activities and her mischief increased by leaps and bounds, learning continously .I still remember how i have anxieties about , how she goes to school,how she gets adjusted there, and I even thought she may not continue school,coz she's soo much a Mom's kid..And even today she's like that,but she got used to school,she became pet for whole school, she goes to school through van.I still wonder whether all this happening really?

My little Boss taught me so many qualities, especially love and patience, sometimes big life lessons too ☺️☺️

ON YOUR FIRST BIRTHDAY

         I can hardly believe you are one year old now, i still feel, it's yesterday u came to my life,but darling u r the best thing that can ever happen to me.The past one year, i can never forget a minute, the bliss and joy u gave to me.I remember u as little innocent darling who knows only sleeping and crying, but now you know lot,you can walk, you can dance, you can show anger, you can smile,can tease,can babble in your language and love me soooooo much.
      Each milestone you cross, u don't know how much happiness u gave to us(me nd ur dad),first time when smiled at me(1 month old), first time when u rolled over(4 months),first time when u started moving on stomach(6 months),when you started sitting(7 months),crawling(8 months),stood up by yourself( 9 months).walking(11 months).All these seems like miracle to me,in just one year you learnt so much my dear, and you taught us so much.You are a very picky child, u don't accept new people easily, u r sooo much mom's baby(of course sometimes it's hard), but i feel sooo proud when u stick to me, and rejects to go away.And the way u recognise me when i come to u,the way u come to me, the way u smile at me, aahhhh....... darling u gave us, sooooo many wonderful moments.
      May be after some years(school years) u become individual, and make your own choices.But this initial years, you are totally MINE, and soooo possessive about you and will protect each and every memory very safely.

  

NEW PHASE

           Hi, Hello,Sasriakal..... hope all are fine and doing good,I am back after 1yr 2months with a new post.Before i come to my point,lemme first discuss about love,ishq,mohabbat( i know u would be thinking i have gone crazy )exclusively the kind of  luv seen "only" in movies,like this dialogue from Sharukh's film, explains it better

Do you really feel this kind of love exists??? that's so unrealistic and crazy, even if exists does that happen with normal people like us(yea there are exceptions like KARAN JOHAR & ADITHYA CHOPRA).I used to laugh at such serious filmy pyaar,but i enjoy such films bcoz i love fantasy.

                But this was my opinion,i realized i was wrong(yea of course) , believe me,it really exists and even in deeper state("madly in love" kind).I can say this confidently b'coz  it happened to me,when i got the very first glance of "her"(don't giv me naughty look,it's her not him), yea love at first sight. Believe me it's the world's best feeling - living for someone whom we love unconditionally.Ya it's a magic,i don't know,i can do "anything" to see her smile,lemme tell u, her smile is the greatest thing in this whole world,as pure as a pearl.One smile i can forget anything and everything, i suffer like hell if she feels any discomfort.I can wake up whole night just to make sure that she sleeps comfortably,I love to see her sleeping,it's as delightful as night sky,at that point of time i wish i could say "TUJH ME RAB DIKTHA HAI YAARA MAI KYA KAROO"to her.Many sleepless nights and lot of tiresome days,but one smile can eliminate all the discomfort. It's so blissful, after all I'm in love,i'm still a one side lover but very soon she loves me too.

Hey u didn't ask about her anything,she is world's beautiful darling, my curious little scientist, it's my darling baby.

It was her who made me realize that i can love somebody so much that i can forget everything other than her. Isn't she cute?????

Coming to the end i just want to tell ,this filmy love ,not sure it happens between normal couple,but this love for sure happens between all mothers and their lovely babies,like it happened to me. After becoming mom, i understood my mom better.Thnx for reading this guys, have a great day 

   

2012 REVIEW

   I do remember, i have a blog (very occasionally) ,to my wonder i have opened it 5 days ago.The first thing i observed is  

    I was like "I am writing a blog per year" , then suddenly i realized, its almost year ending, if now i don't update my next post, my "one blog/ yr changes to 0 blog/yr" (At least this should not happen).Then i took a firm (actually very firm) decision to write next post before new year arrives. Here started the main problem, "What to write?"  many thoughts crossed with zero result. After two days i was just checking my Facebook profile, i got solution on my prof page top right hand corner.

     

     2012  A very special year,which has lots to share.Year which changed my status "Single" to "Married", Year which changed my profession, Year which gave me a new family(My family) ,Year which gave me chance to explore many places (where i never imagined i can visit) and gave great chance to chase my dreams.

       Year started with loads of excitement and enthusiasm, and why not after all it's my engagement followed by marriage. It was the best time ever, it is a very special occasion planned for anyone. When my parents and other relatives are so busy in arrangements, i am so busy in shopping, and discussions about what to shop. I had best 2 months in my work place as well (as it’s my notice period and no one can force you for anything), enjoyed to the extreme with my best pals. Of course no tension, life goes sooo cool in notice period ;-). At this point i must mention, missing Hyderabad and friends (But having bag full of memories for lifetime)          

1.      First two weeks after marriage my mind state was same “every thing is new and everybody are new" felt like experiencing new color of life.

2.     Then came to "Assam". In train it takes almost 2 1/2 day to reach here from Andhra. First time in life traveled very faaaaaaaaar. I am a nature lover and i loved this place so much. Assam is totally blessed by Mother Nature, lots of greenery and fully flowing Brahmaputra River (which is very rare in my place). I was totally fed up of city life, traffic jams, pollution, population etc., and I am feeling very peaceful here. Yeah i do agree i miss Mc Donalds burger, Dominos Pizzas and windows shopping in Malls w/out money in pockets

3.   Here comes the next "change of profession". AFTER FOUR MONTHS came an opportunity and without thinking I took up teaching profession. Teaching profession is like tradition from my mom's house(my both granny's and grand pa's are teachers and my mom), but never thought i will carry on this. Life is always having it's own secrets, reveals it when time comes. I don't make a strict teacher, not sure whether i can become one in future, but I love to spend time with kids (even though now-a-days kids are uncontrollable). By end of the day their annoying deeds make me smile. Only mother and teacher has a chance to closely watch the behavior and funny deeds of the students which will make you laugh even when you remember them at the most sorrowful times.

4.    When you are at a different place with different language and different people, you always tend to searchfor people of your language and place. Here in Assam we got a bunch of people from our language and place who formed as an association. Along with the people we also got some responsibilities and we love them.

5.    From childhood I always loved charity. I ALWAYS HAD A COMPLAINT THAT I AM NOT GIVING TIME FOR WHAT I LOVE. Here in Assam we got a blissful opportunity to fulfill my love for charity. Many people love to help others (charity) but they do not get an opportunity, but I am the lucky one.

   Dats it as of now, last moment blog writing is like last day prep for exam. Atleast from next year I will try to improve to 2 blog/yr. Thanx for reading guys," Wish you everybody a very splendid NEW YEAR"

Being Professional

Hmm.....

   Its me again after one and a half year roughly.Now im no more idle gal.Now im a corporate employee(In the same MNC Wat i mentioned in my old blog)very busy in handling issues(Iam handling issues????@#$%^&!!!,its sounds crazy right,even i feel the same) technical discussions with colleagues(never be useful)corporate parties,Meetings many other stuff.Iam changed now totally the topics what i discuss,the way i speak,the way i used irritate my mom etc..,Parents,friends,relatives according  to these people i became a responsible gal now(hw innocent they r),But what i feel is totally different,My irresponsible life is most lovable that this responsible life and my "useless stuff"(what i used to do b4 becoming corporate bug)am really missing them very badly.There were days were i used to think "a day with out discussing about harry potter is waste"but now may b some 2 or 3 times i hardly taken harry potter word.There were days i used to keep target to complete one novel of 400-500 pages to complete in 4-5 days max(i completed harrypotter-7 550 paged novel wit in 3 and a half day),now i was hanging to one novel from 15monts not even completed 100 pages .My friends used to call me as small Wikipedia about all movies, songs no matter its new or old,now am totally out dated :-P ,many other things what i love to do ,nw i totally forget about them.Everyone tells change is essence of life(may be true)but dont know when i will get convinced with this fact.

 I used to think before coming to this so called "responsible life" that i should do that after going to job,i should do this after going to job.But reality is in professional life only profession becomes our life no time will be left for any other stuff in life.I don't want be partial there are many positive angles of leading responsible life, silly girls like me who spend parents money with out any idea hw they would have worked for earning money, can understand the value of money,value of work.One can face real world out side our comfort zone,new people,new problems,new friends and lots and lots of exposure which will help us not only now but which will help us for future as well.May be not on all days, but we can feel the pleasure that we are working we are earning (on first of every month for sure :-P),we can help our parents(may be not for great extent but at times)this will be ultimate pleasure we can get (like squirrel helping Rama)sometimes even we will not be even aware of potential we will be having,we can find our true self, when we come out and face the challenges alone. But still, even though there are many advantages still i love my irresponsible life,i always miss my silly habits(now i feel those hobbies are silly) and pampered and lazy life,I miss my sister's cute quarrel's;-) (crazy fact is  now am doing hita- bodha to my sister OMG what happen to me).

   Leading more than one and half year responsible life i understood is," life is never easy; its always challenge''going forward, it becomes more tough we should become strong enough and mature enough(like how harry potter transforms from first part to seventh part) to face these challenges.Only thing i learnt is accept the challenges with courage but never leave your cute memories which might not repeat again in life.

         Hope my latest blog is not so senti or boring(i can give u one medicine if u feel its boring,listen to Chammak challo song u can be back with full josh).
 I just want to mention one of my friend's name who always remained me and encouraged(some times forced) me to continue writing blog.Thank u Ganga Shankar this is specially for u(agar bore kar diya tho maaf kr do dost)